Speechless

I have not blogged for a bit and it is really too bad as I am bottled up.
I went home for two weeks and then up to Montreal for a week where M came over and meet my family and friends..... as I worked a wedding. M and my family hit it off which was probably more successful as I was not able to ever be with them.

Two weeks back at home was not long enough. I have to go back when I just am going back for rest and not an event.

I have been speechless over things that have happened in the past week.... but mostly tired. People surprise me....in good and bad ways. Returning back from outside....I see some people and things will seriously never change and you must just accept that and take it or stay away.

I spoke to ARAG last night about everything and I think that she is one of the only people I know that gets it and has been through it..... I didn't realize I needed to vent until I was talking to her and hearing her questions.....and then I felt "YES...and ..I want to scream.." I think ARAG can help explain to M what normally happens, as he was surprised by things that he normally would not have seen.

So I am back during this first week here.....very tired and emotionally spent wondering....."What the hell just happened?"